Guys, as " Enjoy The Silence by Depeche Mode" teaches us sometimes you gotta spit it out.
how ironic that you know me way better than my own family but i guess that strangers can be your father, mother and siblings. It's sad when you feel insecure among them .. when it's only about " here's the money , here's the food ". Even the one who has your heart ecstatically stepping on it. Here i don't feel like the " Abnormal color " . So much joy and positivity so i am expressing my gratitude to each one of you .. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
And to God, I'm not the ideal person but i beg for your forgiveness i'm lost and i pray that you guide me through this, so grateful for the pain and pleasure.